Well, hmm...this sucks. Cathartic and horrible at the same time.

  hey there faithful readers, well it's been some time since my last update, ne?
( Down the rabbit hole )
Well that's all for now faithful readers. Til next time
-Token 

just one more 4 page paper and i'm done with my junior year.

thinking about changing my major to history next semester and getting out of here in 4 years instead of 5 and a half like i would in Theater.

hmm still not sure what i'm doing.


really looking forward to the summer.

Yay! Gay Marriage Bill passed in the Senate today!

22 today

so five weeks since my last update, funny it doesn't feel like its been that long.

well last time i posted, jess had just been up for our anniversary and was heading home.
i enjoyed the rest of my feb. break and just kind of hung out with some of my friends doing nothing. school started back up and so did rehearsals for the show i'm in that opens in april. its called The Distance From Here and its a dark one. i love this play, but goddamn it does get under your skin and make you remember shit best left forgotten. Rehearsals have been going well and the play is really coming together. We open april 10 and close on the 12th. i'll let y'all know when tickets are availible and for how much.

school is overall going well. i'm doing well in my classes and i just found out that they've changed the requirements for a theater major at usm so i might be able to get out in 4 years after all. i'll probably end up taking some summer classes and a couple of winter courses this year to make sure i'm caught up on my core requirements and what not. i also am entertaining the idea of going to the Reader's Theater workshop which is in toronto this year (sadly no London this time around). I've also been chatting with my buddy Moberg about going to Africa with him in August and doing voluneteer work in Kenya for a few weeks. The trip is relativly cheap and it would be good to do some traveling. It's always been my way of thinking that Africa is a bad place (not the people per se but the continent itself) and that everything there will kill you if given the chance. also they have some HUGE spiders there, but the more i think about it the more i feel like i should go. if i can do something over there that makes life a little easier for anyone, then why the hell shouldnt i. im gonna try and haggle to see if i can get some sort of credit over there if i keep a journal or something. who knows?

life is life. it goes on. still in a crisis about money, no job=no money (surprising isn't it?). bounced my rent check this month and then had to borrow 200 bucks from my mom to cover for it. now i'm worried that the rent check i just resent will bounce too so i'm scrambling to make sure it doesnt. i dont want to even think about where april's rent is going to come from. HOWEVER  i did just get an email back about a job that sounds pretty promising. i'm gunning for a baggage porter posistion at Concord Coach Lines, the bus station up the street from my house. it would only be weekends (which im cool with) but the payrate is 10/hour and it seems like pretty easy work. if i can pull in over a hundred a week i'll be set. also school is almost over so once i'm done with my show i'll have some more time open.  i really hope i get this job and can start making money soon.

in other life news, my mom is getting married. well not "married" married but her and her boyfriend want to be unoffically married. they also asked me to do it for them. as a pagan i can do a handtying ceremony which seems to be what they want. i'll probably make up a certificate and write a nice little speech. they're thinking sometime in april, probably closer to my birthday and we'll do a joint celebration.
which reminds me: my birthday is fast approacing (well maybe not fast but its coming up). 29 days left of being 21. its weird thinking that i've been 21 for almost a year now. it always seemed like it was an age that was so far away.

who wants to do something on my birthday? jess can't be up so the plan right now is probably sitting at home doing nothing.

been talking to liz (my godmother) and she wants me to get a car at some point soon. as much as i'd like a car i'm in no financial shape to own one. couldnt afford anything for it if i did have one. having a car would open up job opportunities for me as well.

just a little over a month and a half til school's done. summer plans are probably going to involve working my ass off and trying to find another place to move into once my lease is up.

thats all for now faithful readers.
-token
 

So yesterday was mine and Jess' 2 year anniversary. To celebrate she came up Friday afternoon when I got out of work and we (along with Sean) went out to the Old Port and hung out for a bit. Got some coffee and comics with Sean, cause it had been a while, and then went for Thai food at Thai Chef Buffet (which if you haven't checked out yet do it!). After we went and saw USM's production of Moonchildren. It was alright but I'm not a big fan of the script. Jess and I talked about it on the ride over to the cast party and then socalized when we got there. Didn't stay too long.
Saturday we got up eventually and went downtown to watch the Common Senses play at monument square. It was cold but the guys sounded good and we met up with the Burrito Night crew. Watched the show and then peaced out to get supplies for dinner (which I was making). Got home, watched some Ghost Hunters and ended up having dinner around 8ish. It came out pretty good for my first real attempt at cooking. Watched a little more tv and then went to bed.
Sunday we got up and ended up going over to my mom's for lunch/dinner. It wasn't too bad even though my mom was drunk I think. Her and Dave were pleasant and Ja was there too. Left mom's and went and saw Coraline in Westbrook. We both enjoyed it, but afterwards Jess' car wouldn't start. Ended up being the battery and we called Erol to come jump it. Drove home and watched some movies before going to bed. Noticed there was something weird with my deadbolt on the front door but figured I'd have the landlord look at it Monday.
Monday we got up and went for lunch with Erol to Becky's Diner. Luke's family was down and I reminded him about the deadbolt and to NOT lock the door when he left. After lunch we get back and of course, Luke's locked the door and I'm unable to unlock it. Erol and I tried to get in any way possible for an hour before Luke got home. Of course he couldn't unlock it either and after almost 2 hours of waiting to get Jess' stuff out of the apartment, I finally told her to just  head out and that Erol and I would drive it down once we could get in. Eventually Luke's uncle was able to bust the deadbolt out and we could get in. Luke went to buy a new one, and Erol, myself, and Joe went down to Methuen with Jess' stuff. Got down there, hung out and ate dinner, then came back. Got home and crashed.
Today I have work in the Portland Comp Lab until 5 and then I have rehearsal in Gorham from 6:45 until whenever. Tomorrow is going to be a day of trying to find a job, any job that's close by.

til then faithful readers,
-token

Talking about possible theater jobs:

Me (8:59:44 PM): which theater/

Me (8:59:46 PM): ?*

Jess (9:00:02 PM): TriArts Sharon Theatre (CT)

Me (9:02:30 PM): cool

Me (9:02:40 PM): they have tri in the their name

Me (9:02:51 PM): maybe your job will be to manage a piece of the triforce

Jess (9:03:06 PM): lol

Jess (9:03:08 PM): I WISH

Me (9:04:09 PM): you could be a zora

Me (9:04:26 PM): im sorry it would never work between us, im scared of lake hyrule

Jess (9:04:44 PM): I'm alright - I have good water flippers

Jess (9:04:51 PM): lifting rocks is always my issue

Me (9:05:12 PM): i could do that though, i got this braclet and ever since then, i can fuck rocks up

Me (9:05:16 PM): and bombplants

Jess (9:05:19 PM): hmm

Jess (9:05:24 PM): can I borrow it sometime

Jess (9:05:27 PM): ?

Jess (9:05:38 PM): I also have a fire wand that's pretty cool

Jess (9:05:42 PM): and an ice one to match

Me (9:05:50 PM): thats bitchin

Me (9:05:59 PM): i only got this lame boomarang

Jess (9:06:04 PM): I had a mushroom once

Me (9:06:13 PM): and i had to trade like a dozen bananas to a money and a crocadile for it

Jess (9:06:14 PM): but it got turned into magic druggie powder

Me (9:06:26 PM): some dude ate my magic toadstool

Me (9:06:40 PM): well he was a raccoon that turned into a dude

 

so i'm currently on the downeaster on my way to haverhill and then off to Fitchberg, MA for ACTF. this year the whole department didn't go down so i'm taking some time away from maine to go to the festival and also (more importantly) to see jess. i am so excited to see her (even though its only been like 2 weeks since last we hung out). its really hard when we're not toget\her (for me) and i feel like all i do is think about the next time i'm going to see her. i'm hoping she gets work in Maine this summer so that i can see her a lot more and possibly live together again (pending on our situations at the time). i'm counting down the days until i'm out of college and can move. i mean i know its important to have fun now and enjoy college because the real world sucks (yadda yadda) but i feel like i'm ready for it. i'm ready to work most days and to come home at night craming lines or working on a design, but really none of that will bother me too much as long as she's there at the end of the night with me.

i know, kinda sappy, ne?

in other news, classes are going well and i'm actually enjoying most of them this semester. drama lit sucks, thats a given but otherwise i dont hate any of my classes. i think this might be the semester where i can prove to everyone that i really am a good student and pull off honor roll. i'm far from dean's list but hey, academics were never my bag baby.

also i've been slowly getting back into manga, in the last 2 weeks i've read all of Bleach (thats out) and gotten caught up in Naruto. currently i'm trying to get caught up on Full Metal Alchemist (a personal fav) and i think im going to tackel Beserk next (if i can find it online).

overall (aside from money issues which is nothing new with me) my life is going well. i've gotten back in touch with Kat, and i think im mending some mistakes that i've made there. despite the shit i put her through she really was/is one of my better friends. it feels good to have her back in my life (to some extent). I feel that a lot of my past mistakes i'm starting to be correct and that i'm on the way to being a decent person (for reals). ever since i really started practicing being a pagen i've been more in touch with the feelings of those around me and how heavily i influence people. i mean becoming a pagen didn't suddenly make me wake up and go "hey i should be sensitive to other people" but it helped me really be aware of my presence. the days are coming when people like me are going to be needed.

well thats enough of that, and that's it for now.
love and peace.
-token

so i never really stick to my new years resolutions but i think this year i'd like to get back into drawing.

off to see Blue Man Group on saturday in Boston with Jess. Looks to be a great time and I'm really happy about getting to go down and hang out with her some more. Tuesday I was really bored and realized i didnt have anything really to do in Maine so i jumped a train down to Haverhill to spend some time with her. spur of the moment travel plans: gotta love em.

Classes kick off in about a week or so and I'm not really excited to go back but at the same time it would be nice to get back into the swing of things on campus. Spending too much time in the apartment is no good especially when I still don't have a job ( gotta turn in some more applications and continue the job hunting)

til next time faithful readers

-token

HAPPY NEW YEARS from all of us at the Life Proposterous


here's hoping 2010 starts out better then 2009

show is now over, over all i felt it went well. a big thank you for those of you who came to see it, i know i wasn't really in it for very long but i'm glad you all seemed to enjoy it.

all i have is two classes tomorrow plus 3 hours of work on gorham campus and then i'm officially on thanksgiving break. wednesday should be fun, as my family (mom, kevin, shannon, and ja) are coming over for dinner a day early. then after dinner kevin is driving me down to Methuen so that i can do thanksgiving with jess and her family. i'm really looking forward to it (albeit a bit nervous). jess has to work wicked early black friday but should be out around 1ish, then after we're going to hang out, maybe see Twilight and then i'm on the 5:45 train back to Maine. Saturday is a day of trying to find a job (i'm broke and still unemployed in the real world) and then trying to get some home work done sunday.

 now jess is done at Northshore (she was doing costumes there for two full shows) i'm hoping i'll get to see her more often. before our work/show schedules were pretty hetic but i'm hoping to see a lot more of her this winter. things (as far as i can tell) are going well between us, she came up to see the show last week and spent a couple of days with me. it was good times and she ended up cooking dinner for myself, luke, and moberg. i still haven't reached any decisions on whether or not i should move to MA (been thinking about it weighing the pros and cons) i think i'm gonna finish out this year and then see what things look like for the summer. money and credit transfers are going to factor heavily but like i said, right now im just sort of playing it by year. I only have at most 3 semesters left at USM so i might just bite the bullet and finish things out there.

anyways faithful readers, thats all for now.
in case i don't update on the day, have a happy thanksgiving and be with those you love.

-token

hey come see The Man Who Came to Dinner at gorham campus Russel Theater
tickets are 5 for students 10 for adults, shows are thursday, friday, and saturday at 7:30 and sunday at 2pm. We close sunday so hopefully those that want to can come see it. Show has been going well.

hope ya all get to see it!

"It's funny, looking at me you wouldn't be able to tell that I'm not really here at all."

I have to do something about this, I just keep ignoring it and  hoping it will work out fine. :-\

Also as everyone knows, Barack Obama won the election and come January he will be sworn in as our President. I'm very excited. Don't get me wrong, I'm not an Obama zealot, heck he might not be the change we need, but he is definately bringing about the opportunity for change that this generation wants.  He's a figurehead to make the younger generation pay attention and be interested in politics, and if he fucks up royally, then it will teach our generation some humility and to be more informed next time. like the title says, there will be change for better or for worse.

in other news, The Man Who Came to Dinner opens next friday and runs until Nov. 23rd. I have a small role in it but its still a good play and if you have the time i highly recomend seeing it.

its raining very hard right now

til next time.

-token

*EDIT* oh i also found out that theres no possible way for me to pass drama lit. 1 now so that makes 3 drama lits in a row that i've failed. I'm going to be trapped at USM forever.
FUCK!

woke up this morning to a friend puking in a pot and a hole in my dinning room wall from our downstair neighbor's head.
all signs point to a good first party at the apartment.


had a good halloween.

down in MA for today and tomorrow visting Jess. Should be a good time. ^_^

go vote on tuesday!

its okay, i'm pretty sure things are going to be okay. I just have to work twice as hard to make sure i never give you a reason to doubt me again.